I'm exhausted and discouraged. Felt like I was coming down with something yesterday, so I didn't do anything but relax and do some schoolwork. Today I had class and biked to and from, my bike isn't getting any better, still having issues with the broken piece making the seat fall all the way down and swivel around, which is a PITA. Getting more and more info on the program I'm in and the requirements even past graduation and the tests I need to pass and the struggles I have yet to face. Doing everything all at once - moving out to Cali, working on a grad program, trying to make rent and bills, trying to find a job so I can get some sort of RELIABLE transportation fit for an adult, trying to improve myself and work on my personal issues, AND trying to lose weight on top of it all - seems like trying to climb a mountain... without legs... while being chained to a rock. Just ridiculously impossible.
I know that God didn't make everything work to get me out here just to fail, but I'm seriously in need of a good cry session or something. Just to let me feel bad for myself for a second, then be given everything else I need haha. Unfortunately, life doesn't work that way. I need to trust God to lead me towards what He wants me to do and open up the doors instead of worrying about which ones I should try to force open by myself.
Okay, time to finish this episode of Grey's Anatomy and get some food... Unfortunately, food always makes me feel better lol.
Oh! Bonus for tonight though... here are the pics I promised from last week. GROSS!
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